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Will you read my mind?

December 4, 2008

I wish my doctor would read my mind. It’d save the telling off I just got. I am really, really angry. I’m in a permanent high state and things are going to pot: I have no concentration, so doing no work; I’m too high to socialise without making a fool of myself; I’m itching all over with anger and just feeling really, really volatile. So, what did I say? Yeah, I’m okay. Things have been uppy and downy, I keep switching from really, really low to high and I told her about the skipping and she just laughed. I told her about the thinking people were going to stab me thing and she shouted at me for not telling her when I actually was on fluoxetine. Does she not realise how friggin hard this is to actually admit to the fact that things aren’t going well, I’m lacking in support in every way and laughing at everything I say does not help me.

Thank gosh she’s leaving…. yes, I need to find a new GP but at least it won’t be her.

I have an idea for a release, but it’s not the right one. Welcome back to distraction city.

4 Comments leave one →
  1. December 4, 2008 8:30 pm

    Oh dear, I hope you find a better GP, she doesn’t sound like what you need.

    I find it hard to own up to things too, and I’ve certainly never admitted to things that I guess would actually be in my interest to disclose. I’d certainly hope that if I did, they’d attempt to understand why I’d kept it from them.

  2. December 4, 2008 8:32 pm

    Just realised I phrased that kinda weird. Hope you know what I meant. My thoughts are all wiggly at the moment instead of coming out in a straight line.

  3. December 5, 2008 8:52 am

    I am the same. I get told off for not disclosing but I just don’t know what to say. It’s so hard. I wish they were mind readers. My psych is ok at reading between the lines but sometimes she does that and jumps to conclusions so that doesn’t help either. Anyway, i hope your new gp is some help. X

  4. December 5, 2008 10:19 am

    Chouette, I understood, don’t worry. My friend says she’s seen all the docs there and they’re all a bit rubbish. I’ll see how it goes or maybe try and move.

    And ITS, thanks xx

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