Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating, fluoxetine, university on November 23, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I have a dilemma: I’m reading through the diagnostic criterion for the 2 big eating disorders that my doc gave me a print out for and I’m beginning to wonder whether this is me getting “better” from times when I was younger, and all this talk is just triggering?
Looking at anorexia nervosa:
Food restriction- well, not [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged CBT, citalopram, counselling, eating, fluoxetine, university on November 20, 2008 | 7 Comments »
Well, I guess the good news is that I’m off the fluoxetine and will soon (as in tomorrow) be starting to take my new friend, tally. I just have to actually go and collect him from somewhere. It was a difficult task to persuade my doctor to take me off it, instead of upping the [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, climbing, energy, fluoxetine, happiness, photography, sleep, university, writing on November 18, 2008 | 8 Comments »
So, is this what I’ve been waiting for, days of endless joy where I can laugh, have endless amounts of energy and everything is exciting? If so, it’s really beginning to piss me off. I’m not used to all of this and my surroundings are just now so interesting I stop to look at buildings, [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged accepting, birmingham, fluoxetine, university on November 15, 2008 | 1 Comment »
Coming to accept that there are no “shoulds” of what I should be doing at the weekend. I shouldn’t be out shopping, I shouldn’t be with friends, I shouldn’t be going out… I should be doing what I enjoy… and that is rock climbing, drawing, reading and exploring…
This is a momentous moment for me, I [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged fluoxetine on November 14, 2008 | 22 Comments »
I have a feeling fluoxetine may actually be working, which is a bit of a shame seeing as the past couple of weeks have been sheer and utter hell. Things are feeling more copeable and positive, which is good… just I’m scared of things going pear shaped again. I’m still going to chase up the [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged angry, birmingham, fluoxetine, MHW, university on November 12, 2008 | 5 Comments »
In my very hungover state this morning I had my meeting with the MHW (yay or so I thought…) and quite frankly I’m a bit pissed off: I was never told this was time limited, he’s told me that he’s going on a course for FOUR weeks and is trying to sort me out to [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, fluoxetine, MHW, university on November 9, 2008 | 8 Comments »
Why is it so hard to be honest? Why can’t I just walk into my doctors’ office, my MHW’s room and just say everything?
Why is talking about my eating and feelings so hard? What stops me? Is it I’m scared of what they’ll think of me? Am I scared of revealing the truth to myself [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged fluoxetine, university on November 8, 2008 | 3 Comments »
So, this week is reading week for the French component of my course, which basically means I don’t have to get up any time early this week apart from thursday. Yay. But this is causing some problems. I have reading to do, but also books out from the library and unfortunately those are ultimately more [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, CMHT, doctors, fluoxetine, MHW, university on November 4, 2008 | 4 Comments »
So, today I went to the doctors for a checkup and seeing how well I’m getting on with fluoxetine (I’m not). We discussed everything that’s going on and she’s keeping me on it for another 2 weeks to see if there is any improvement. I’m slightly upset by this because what’s going on is scaring [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged fluoxetine, MHW, suicide, thoughts on October 19, 2008 | 6 Comments »
I am in no way educated on what an overdose of Fluoxetine will do, and hell, I don’t even want to die. But, there’s these thoughts, really bad ones, telling me I do. That I should swallow them all. I have 44 pills left, courtesy of a new prescription given to me by my doctor [...]
