I am too thin. I should do something about it, but I have no appetite and eating makes me feel physically sick after a few mouthfulls. I’m hoping to take more control when I get back to Uni, as I’ll have all the choice over what to eat, and I will be able to do [...]
Posts Tagged ‘eating’
A Realisation
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating, university on September 19, 2009 | 2 Comments »
Comfort Seeking Fiend
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged advice, eating on September 4, 2009 | 2 Comments »
So, I guess all this comes down to is seeking comfort. Seeking comfort in something that can provide me with comfort, as at the moment nothing else does. I can get comfy in my thinner, slimmer body and take comfort in the pain. The only thing that seems to make me feel good; gee I [...]
Consciously Unconscious
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating on September 3, 2009 | 4 Comments »
So, I’ve just started noticing that I’ve been letting the quantity of food I’m eating slip a little. I’m still eating breakfast, lunch and dinner but it’s not all there. The comforting grinding pain is back again in my stomach, the little feeling of it all being so ‘worth it’. I want it to be [...]
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged advice, depression, eating on June 14, 2009 | 2 Comments »
Mist. Fog. Cloud. Call it what you will, but here it is. There’s something creeping over me, like clouds across the sky. A breeze gently blowing across something that isn’t a town, city or country; a breeze that’s blowing across my head, bringing the stormy clouds together, to cloud my judgement, to cloud my senses, [...]
More Photos…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged depression, doctors, eating, photos, suicide on May 29, 2009 | 3 Comments »
I have nothing much to say at the moment; my brain’s on holiday and my feelings have gone with. There’s a gentle weight resting on me but it’s not too bad. I’m just floating around, this week’s been fairly good and long may it last.
I saw the doc again today, turned up and soothed her [...]
Routine Routines
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating, hair on May 19, 2009 | 13 Comments »
I’m having difficulty following the eating routine. I’m feeling nothing, nothing at all, including hunger. If I don’t feel hunger, I won’t eat; at the moment my life is being guided by a clock, not my feelings. I’m slowly but surely getting a hunch that Tally is stopping working. Point is proved by my mood [...]
Elephantineesque
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating on May 2, 2009 | 8 Comments »
Big legs, Big arms, Big stomach. Not just generously proportioned, but gross. Fat. Obese.
Where did this attack sneak up from?
I can’t stand the sight of myself, every part of me is laden with self disgust. How did I manage to let myself get this big, this fat? It’s quite frankly, disgusting. I’m a mirror phobe, [...]
The Truth About Online Anorexia (with Fearne Cotton)
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating on April 9, 2009 | 7 Comments »
Sensationalist, same style as the binge drinking one Michelle Heaton did last year to prove how bad it is for you. So, do we like it? Well, thumbs up for trying to create awareness of it; there is an issue to do with female magazines which can present a pressure to be thin, and to [...]
The story behind my parents and my eating
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating on April 5, 2009 | 5 Comments »
A catch up and ‘everything is here’ post, seeing as a) I talk about it enough b) the background is unknown to many c) La asked to know!
Nobody loves me, everybody hates me, I think I’ll go and eat worms…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, blogging, depression, eating, manchester on March 3, 2009 | 2 Comments »
I’m in a rather melancolic mood, that’s all. I’ve been stupid in some things I’ve said, and I can’t accept being told things that I already know. I already knew that, too, but tell me and it’ll make me cry. The situation is fully resolved, I know that but I keep on harking back to [...]
