The positives of going back to uni

So, I saw my therapist this morning. I wasn’t really feeling at my best, as such I don’t think I used the session as well as I could have. See, I don’t *actually* know why I’m feeling down, I can make up reasons, say that maybe I’ve just worked too hard and that I’ll be [...]

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Slippage

I’m slipping further and deeper into the murky, muddy waters. Was it my fault? Probably. Was it always going to happen? Who knows… There’s never going to be a clean cut answer to this, maybe it was a temporary up, maybe it was meant to stay good but I messed it up. I don’t want [...]

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Once you stop, you just can’t start

(and the only reason I’m writing this is because I have no ideas for a fathers’ day card!)
All week I’ve wanted to write, but I’ve either not had time or when I’ve had time I’ve not felt like doing anything. But now I have, now I am home. Straight out of student land and into [...]

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More Photos…

I have nothing much to say at the moment; my brain’s on holiday and my feelings have gone with. There’s a gentle weight resting on me but it’s not too bad. I’m just floating around, this week’s been fairly good and long may it last.
I saw the doc again today, turned up and soothed her [...]

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Achievements

So, today, after being repeatedly told by my doctor just how far I’ve come, how I’m not a quitter, how blah blah blah etc I’ve been considering my achievements…
So, what are they?

Uni- the whole moving away, everything on my own, all the work etc
Surviving Uni with all the stuff that’s been going on in my [...]

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Impulsivity

Snip snap, quick decisions quickly made. Listen to your head, you silly girl. No, don’t do that; do this instead.
My head’s being really loud and controlling. Having lots of urges and obsessions and things I can’t let go, I just have to do. Just the thing is, that it involves my accidentally large stockpile of [...]

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New doctor, New shenanigans, New straight in at the deep end

So, today was the day I met my new doctor. She seems nice. And also unafraid of plunging straight in at the deep end… Bugger. And she wouldn’t let me wiggle out of questions. I guess she was thorough at least; just I wasn’t quite expecting ‘Hi, I’m Dr X, How are you? Your notes [...]

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Letting people in

I’ve lent a few people keys to inside me today; firstly my doctor in a thank you card, my counsellor and Gracie.
I decided to give my doctor this link because I trust her and I wanted to give it her (I could ramble again about it’s a shame she’s leaving and blahh but I’m sure [...]

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Die Ärztin

So, today was doctors day and also was meant to be counselling day, but a severe lack of well, bad weather meant it was cancelled.
The appointment went quite well, actually and I’ve come out with another prescription for 30mg Tally. I already knew the doctor, as she’d been the one ’sitting in’ when my old [...]

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Tally Ho!

Well, the floppy eared bunny is going up to 30mg, from 20mg; I can’t believe how small the 10mg tablets are!
I also had to see a new doctor, and thankfully she was really nice. She didn’t seem to care about how long I was in there (although that could explain why I had to wait [...]

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