So, I’m back in Manchester again. I don’t know what I’m supposed to say next, because what I want to say I can’t. I’m going to try and word it, just the problem is I don’t know if it’s the right thing to say.
I want to say I’m a complete bitch; all these things I’ve [...]
Archive for November, 2008
Back Home…
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, manchester, MHW, university on November 29, 2008 | 12 Comments »
5 months’ break
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged citalopram, eating, self harm on November 29, 2008 | 2 Comments »
So, yesterday I broke my 5 months (nearly 6!) of no self harm. The bad news is, well, next to nothing apart from the fact that I keep forgetting this and don’t wear long sleeves and the good is that I have no desire to repeat the experience. I’m quite pleased about this; I feel [...]
Photo Thursday
Posted in Uncategorized on November 27, 2008 | 2 Comments »
So, it’s back. I totally forgot last week due to my skipping tendencies, but this week I have some more photos. I don’t know which ones myself, actually!
Wondering how long citalopram takes to kick in
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged citalopram on November 26, 2008 | 9 Comments »
I was just wondering if anyone knows how long it takes for citalopram to kick in, in terms of hours.
It’s just I take it in a morning, and come 9pm I’m feeling pretty okay; motivated and happy, but the rest of the day is utter rubbish.
Would it be worth taking it before I went to [...]
Safety
Posted in Uncategorized on November 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I’m safe here. In the library, in a corner hiding away from the world, just getting on with my work. I feel secure, motivated, like maybe I have a chance. But now that peacefulness is shattered, the library is closing. I have nowhere to go. I don’t want to go back to my room, that’s [...]
Wordless
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged university on November 25, 2008 | 4 Comments »
Push the boat out, do some work. Why is the most work the hardest thing to do? If I can do this, the weight will go, but instead I’m dreaming of Manchester, London and of reading. Which’d be fine except going home at the weekend means doing no work, going to London means 2 days [...]
Too close to home, pt 2
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged beating the blues, depression, eating, university on November 24, 2008 | 2 Comments »
I’m sitting here waiting for my German listening task to finish downloading, which’d be okay except I’m several weeks behind and week 6’s is about eating disorders. I’m sorry if I seem pissy about this, but I’m quite fragile and just the word “bulimie” “magersucht” and “Essstörung” is sending daggers through my heart. This isn’t [...]
Diagnosing myself with something I don’t have (anymore)?
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating, fluoxetine, university on November 23, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I have a dilemma: I’m reading through the diagnostic criterion for the 2 big eating disorders that my doc gave me a print out for and I’m beginning to wonder whether this is me getting “better” from times when I was younger, and all this talk is just triggering?
Looking at anorexia nervosa:
Food restriction- well, not [...]
Tagged!
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged tagged on November 23, 2008 | 3 Comments »
A sweetie named Lola has tagged me for the following:
Lots and lots of questions!
1. Do you like blue cheese salad dressing?
I don’t like cheese
2. Favorite late night snack?
Shreddies!
3. Do you own a gun?
No, but the market near me sells them
4. What’s your favorite drink at Starbucks or other specialty coffee shop?
I don’t actually like [...]
Striking a nerve
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged depression, eating, self harm on November 22, 2008 | 6 Comments »
I just finished watching part 2 of “How Mad Are You?” on iPlayer and three comments really shook me.
Firstly, when alex was talking about her anorexia:
Hunger was the thing I liked best, actually. Bizarre, but I knew if I was hungry, my body wasn’t getting enough calories so I knew I was going to be [...]
