I’m feeling a little out of words right now, so here is Birmingham:
A turtle who it appears was desperate to escape! He kept running against the glass!
Archive for October, 2008
When inspiration striketh not
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged autumn, birmingham, cannon hill, university on October 30, 2008 | 10 Comments »
Building bridges I never had
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, family, university on October 27, 2008 | 15 Comments »
Me and my family aren’t close; we never have been. On the subject of my mental health they know very little: the last time I tried to talk to my mum it didn’t go too well and ever since the subject has been left to lie.
But, I’m finding myself ever jealous of those who do [...]
Stats analysis
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged posts on October 25, 2008 | 5 Comments »
(just for Suzy!)
Reet, so…
friend or foe?
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged beating the blues, eating, MHW, self esteem on October 25, 2008 | 10 Comments »
Too much fat or no fat?
Good for me or bad for me?
Should I eat/shouldn’t I eat?
Why do I have no food left already?!
My life revolves too much around food: when I’m next going to eat, what I’ll eat next, does it contain the “right” stuff?, do I need to buy more food or do [...]
A non self loving thank you post
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged thank you on October 23, 2008 | 6 Comments »
So, I’ve got to the almightly point of 1000 hits! I never thought anyone’d read it, so well, wow! Thank you to everyone who’s read this blog whenever, and thank you to those of you who have commented!
Maybe I should do a landmark thingy?
This blog was created on 1st september ‘08, and I think I [...]
Waving magic wands and how to describe myself
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged MHW, self esteem, thoughts, truth on October 21, 2008 | 14 Comments »
“I honestly don’t know what to say, Kate. I wish I could wave a magic wand and make everything better, but I can’t.”
That makes 2 of us, then. I wish it was as simple as waving a wand and everything goes right.
So, this morning I had my appointment with the MHW and I pretty much [...]
Battling bad thoughts
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged fluoxetine, MHW, suicide, thoughts on October 19, 2008 | 6 Comments »
I am in no way educated on what an overdose of Fluoxetine will do, and hell, I don’t even want to die. But, there’s these thoughts, really bad ones, telling me I do. That I should swallow them all. I have 44 pills left, courtesy of a new prescription given to me by my doctor [...]
Pictures I shouldn’t be painting: putting things into perspective
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, manchester, university on October 16, 2008 | 4 Comments »
I had a chat with one of my floor mates last night about things, about the homesickness and generally how I’m feeling. And it made me realise something: I’m hailing Manchester as this god that makes everything right. That if I go home I’ll be feeling fine again. Except I won’t. Manchester brought this on, [...]
Crumbling
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged birmingham, friends, university on October 15, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Birmingham’s not going well. I don’t want to say I predicted this would happen, because there was always hope it wouldn’t. Except it has. Every time I pick up a knife, my first motive is to use it as a weapon against myself, not food. The stairs would be great to fall down; the windows [...]
too close for comfort
Posted in Uncategorized, tagged eating, MHW, suicide, trains, truth on October 14, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I like to think I’m open about things, but I’m coming to realise I’m not. I can easily talk about things when I have a computer screen to hide behind, but when it comes to real life, person to person, it’s not that simple. Telling my friend about my last suicide attempt, talking about how [...]
